deservingtodie

Pain

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 08:33:30 GMT

Wow, I guess it will be easy to not eat now! I have this severe pain in like 2 of my teeth. I think I have a tooth absess! Not that its good to have those, cuz it does hurt like hell, but I mean it makes it hard to chew! I got a doctors appointment on thursday. I aslo am a little worried because I did some research on tooth pain and it states that some of the reasons for tooth pain is a symptom of ana, and well, obviously... anyways I sure they won't question that! OH well I hope everyone is doing well. It is day 2 of my fast! I hope to lose like 15 lbs in this month. By July, when I turn 18, I want to weigh 120. I can do it.. That is only 42 lbs away! Well stay strong

THINK THIN, BE THIN STAY THIN.

Also a poem! made by me!

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 07:17:32 GMT

No one knows the pain I feel
A pain in which i cannot kill
A life is torn between the lines
A soul which one will never find

The pain that comes is from a knife
And then it takes anothers life.
No food to eat it's mind away
But ones way of life will never stray

It's not a disease and she's not ill
But desperately she tries to make it heal
With every curve the body shows
The more the doctor soon too knows

He tries to help her and doesn't realize
The things he does, she despise!
No sooner when she is released
And realized her weight increased!

Trying harder to find a way
To make her fat go away
She tries so hard and starts to lie
But later then, she too dies!

I'm not a pig, I'm not a disease
So leave me alone if you please
It's a secret, I cannot tell
All I can say is 'go to hell'

It's not your life, but it's mine
And I'll hurt it a thousand times
Stop your barking you stupid hounds
All I want is to weigh zero pounds!

New study/experiment results

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 07:01:41 GMT

Did you know that if you take a hot bath every day for about thirty minutes, you get the same effect as a sona? Not only that up you are buring extra calories, and releasing toxins from your body, causing you to lose 1/2 to 1 pound more each time. That true! I did it myself along with my normal fasting and exercising and lost up to 1/2 to 1 extra pound each day! However, staying in longer does not make you lose more. The safe amount of time is 30-45 minutes. Otherwise you are only going to lose water weight and your body would retain the toxins to help keep your body in a controled temp.
Today I was with a friend who knows about my previous ED, and so she made me get some or threatend to turn me in again. I had around 900 cal todays. I so cannot wait for the college classes to start again! Well stay strong!
THINK THIN BE THIN STAY THIN!