urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deservingtodie deservingtodie deservingtodie 2006-03-22T08:33:30Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deservingtodie:865 2006-03-22T08:33:30Z 2006-03-22T08:33:30Z Wow, I guess it will be easy to not eat now! I have this severe pain in like 2 of my teeth. I think I have a tooth absess! Not that its good to have those, cuz it does hurt like hell, but I mean it makes it hard to chew! I got a doctors appointment on thursday. I aslo am a little worried because I did some research on tooth pain and it states that some of the reasons for tooth pain is a symptom of ana, and well, obviously... anyways I sure they won't question that! OH well I hope everyone is doing well. It is day 2 of my fast! I hope to lose like 15 lbs in this month. By July, when I turn 18, I want to weigh 120. I can do it.. That is only 42 lbs away! Well stay strong<br /><br />THINK THIN, BE THIN STAY THIN. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deservingtodie:739 2006-01-29T07:17:32Z 2006-01-29T07:17:32Z No one knows the pain I feel<br />A pain in which i cannot kill<br />A life is torn between the lines<br />A soul which one will never find<br /><br />The pain that comes is from a knife<br />And then it takes anothers life.<br />No food to eat it's mind away<br />But ones way of life will never stray<br /><br />It's not a disease and she's not ill<br />But desperately she tries to make it heal<br />With every curve the body shows<br />The more the doctor soon too knows<br /><br />He tries to help her and doesn't realize<br />The things he does, she despise!<br />No sooner when she is released<br />And realized her weight increased!<br /><br />Trying harder to find a way<br />To make her fat go away<br />She tries so hard and starts to lie<br />But later then, she too dies!<br /><br />I'm not a pig, I'm not a disease<br />So leave me alone if you please<br />It's a secret, I cannot tell<br />All I can say is 'go to hell'<br /><br />It's not your life, but it's mine<br />And I'll hurt it a thousand times<br />Stop your barking you stupid hounds<br />All I want is to weigh zero pounds! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deservingtodie:461 2005-12-31T07:01:41Z 2005-12-31T07:01:41Z Did you know that if you take a hot bath every day for about thirty minutes, you get the same effect as a sona? Not only that up you are buring extra calories, and releasing toxins from your body, causing you to lose 1/2 to 1 pound more each time. That true! I did it myself along with my normal fasting and exercising and lost up to 1/2 to 1 extra pound each day! However, staying in longer does not make you lose more. The safe amount of time is 30-45 minutes. Otherwise you are only going to lose water weight and your body would retain the toxins to help keep your body in a controled temp. <br />Today I was with a friend who knows about my previous ED, and so she made me get some or threatend to turn me in again. I had around 900 cal todays. I so cannot wait for the college classes to start again! Well stay strong! <br />THINK THIN BE THIN STAY THIN!